secret of the day...
it may be the beer last night or i've been over analyzing my state for the longest time. i feel stuck... no drive, no passion for anything. it feels like i'm just going through the motions of everyday life like a tormented rodent running endlessly in a hamster wheel. i'm sick of it, and perhaps scared. i'm at this age when i'm supposed to be in control of my life, but i'm not. i feel like i need to escape something, i don't know what it is. and i need to find something, i don't know what that is either... i used to know a sign when i see one, i think i may have lost that sensitivity.
soulsearching... i need to get hold of my old self...
in the meantime, i'll watch dexter kill bad bad people. it might help me feel better...
it may be the beer last night or i've been over analyzing my state for the longest time. i feel stuck... no drive, no passion for anything. it feels like i'm just going through the motions of everyday life like a tormented rodent running endlessly in a hamster wheel. i'm sick of it, and perhaps scared. i'm at this age when i'm supposed to be in control of my life, but i'm not. i feel like i need to escape something, i don't know what it is. and i need to find something, i don't know what that is either... i used to know a sign when i see one, i think i may have lost that sensitivity.
soulsearching... i need to get hold of my old self...
in the meantime, i'll watch dexter kill bad bad people. it might help me feel better...
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